Always Love You

is come home..

not go out with friends

not go on dates with boys.

that all seems much too overwhelming.

I am weak but becoming stronger.

Independence and freedom are right at my fingertips.

Sometimes I feel like I have to be alone to be free.

I feel like I’ve become cold and un-friendly to those around me, 

I don’t mean to be, because I like most people.

But the effort of small talk is not worth my breath these days.

Am I being selfish?

Maybe.

Is it the right thing for me right now?

I really, really, don’t know.

But I am trying.

This is not who I am

this is merely experience I am having.

To cuddle up with hot tea and a book, legging pants and a snuggly warm top.

But it’s spring!

Birds are fleeting, 

like these moments passing by.

I might just reach out someday soon.

And grab one.